ayun! hahaiz...finally sinipag uli ako magupdate...
last night pinost ko dito ung ftalk crushlist ko.. *see previous post*
nahihirapan kasi ako hagilapin ung lists ko sa kaht dito man lang magka copy ako
for copy paste sake haha
ok.. so tagal ko nawala... and seriously i wanna apologize for those who visits my blog..
mavivisit ko na uli blogs nyo ayeee XD
Im back at
Friendster, haha di naman ako nawala dun. Mejo tinamad lang nakakatamad naman kasi talaga minsan dun haha XD lalo na ngaun naaadik ako sa FB. Im back at FS kasi may sinusundan akong guy dun haha oo stalker moed activated...Stalker in a good way naman. Thankful pa nga ako dahil sa kanya ginanahan na uli ako magsipagreply sa comments ahihihi XD and pati ung 2 other accounts ko nabuksan ko uli haha! yeah basta active na ko uli dun so u can add me na lang! bago na rin pala email ko dun nagkaprob dun sa dati kong email eh ayun..
Everybody's getting crazy about
Boys Over FLowers, and isa na ko dun haha..gahd!! ang ganda ganda po nun! I know ung meteor garden yung taiwanese version nun, its ok naman din pero for me mas maganda ang BOF. Im so lovin Kim Bum and Lee Min Ho! haha daming nagkakagusto sa kanila.. sino ba naman kasi hindi magkakagusto dun ayyy ang wafu hahaha XD kiligin daw ba lolz.. natapos ko na ung series sa dvd haha! atat kasi ako sa kung anong mangyayari sa ending. and para na rin macompare ko sa MG * meteor garden* and mas gusto ko na talaga ang BOF ayaw ko naman mang spoil dito.. I remember ung barkada ko adik din sya dun and meron daw sila dvd pero di nya pinanood para daw may thrill ahehe kaya yun di ko na kwento masyado lolz.. Ang ganda pa ng OST nun! and now im trying to leanr Korean! haha with the help of my
DOllie/Chai! haha pinagtyatyagaan nya kong turuan eh and Im really impressed haha kasi i know naman na alam na nya yung mga un by heart nga sabi nya... sana matutunan ko rin un asap haha atat! ang cute kasi ng salita nila! mag aala - JANDI ako haha...
"Annyong haseyo" oha oha! haha
And dahil sa kaadikan ko kay na
Kim Bum and Lee Min Ho..nagrequest ako kay Lovelee ng sig ahihihi...kapal ko haha XD
eto po ung gawa nya for me! magkasama na sila... kasi nung una magkahiwalay pa na sig ang nilagay ko and gnamit ko sa fs ko yan magkasama na sila haha sabi ko nga sana pala nilagay nya pic ko sa gitna nilang dalawa oha oha ahaha XD lakas trip! woohoo kagabi pa ko hyper hahaha XD
Thanks Owangee lovelee!! muah!
Got new pics din pala ahihi tagal kong di nagupload ng pics.. haha..
kamukha ko raw dito si KC C. malabo ata mata ng mga yun..=D
haha ang arte daw sabi ni lovelee sabi ko naman "solomot!" ahihi
sige ayun lang mna! sa wakas at may matinong update na rin ako!
matino daw?! XD haha ciao!!
Her name's Lovelee Joy. People call her Loev but I call her Owangee... :)
Ive seen her posting at FTALK already soo many times before. And we never got the chance to talk or chat man lang. Then she voted for me at a poll at the UG section at ftalk. And that time I was just happy and thankful coz she voted for me coz she thinks im friendly. She asked me once noon, if she can make a request thread and I said it was ok but itd be better if she will ask the others persmission too. Then after that we started chatting at YM. Bebegay Faith and her were already close and di naman ako nahirapan maging close sa kanya. Because She's really nice as in nice talaga and very friendly. Shes very pretty and lovable, her name really suits her :) She's so talkative , liek shes so bangag and all. She loevs singing love songs to me over the phone. Sweet noh haha most of the songs she sang was for a brokenhearted liek me haha. But I love listening to her voice, very angelic kasi. She loves Sinigang any kind of sinigang. She loevs saying Oh Mi Gash liek those were the first words she learned. Shes really crazy but in a good way naman. She is most of the times demanding. She would demand that I call her and say "Now na" haha shes bossy yeah. She would also demand that I buy her a domain name liek ftw XD Imma gave her gifts for real soon basta i dunno when. ahaha...She would always say Im corny haha now shes the 2nd person who told me I am corny! I know naman na un haha... I know where she lives, I mean the address lang haha. She's not just a friend to me, more than a sister. Shes been a part of my life and I didnt plan it this way, but still Im thankful God gave her to me. She's liek my baby best friend. Baby coz shes obviously younger than me. Best friend coz Ive told her many of my secrets, past,my current thoughts and opinions. And shed always be there to say "yaan mo sila, mas maganda tayo!" or "ganun talaga, and thats ok!" And those simple words really made me feel better.
Message for Her
OMG haha lolz.. i cant say Oh Mi Gash kasi the way you always did eh. Youre always there for me, and I wanna thank you for everything. Eeeekkk Sobwang Cheeszy! xD I laughed liek crazy haha and when I say crazy yun na un.and nobody knows it ikaw lang kasi obviously you are the only/1st Girl/best friend that I ever talked to over the phone. Youve heard me laughed like crazy and you where there when I cried coz of some issues with my personal Life and you know it! I understand you coz I know somehow you understand my feelings/thoughts. I know when youre tampo at someone and Im always there and will always be there for you. Sorry for the times I disappoint you for not calling you at night *naks* You know naman na mejo magulo dito samin haha.. I just hoped and wished you wont change. Many people Ive known kasi usually left without even saying gudbye lolz.. I dunn want to lose you. weve never met Basta ayoko magtampo ka sakin or galit. Im always here for you when you need someone to talked to sabhn mo lang.
I dunn have gits for you next time na lang owangee...
sana maappreciate mo to xD =D eeeekkk sobwang cheeszy... ;D
Its May 22 already... and yesterday was shempre 21 haha xD Its been a month now... since the
breakup.. wala lang naman. yesterday nung naalala kong 21 na pala sabi ko parang ang tagal naman mag 1 month nun for me it felt like 3 months na. xD .. anyways... yun lang naman yun... nothin new ;) im still moving on..im doing fine :) ^_^
Ang daming nangyari lately... Im sure You all know about the A(h1n1) virus.. last night kasi nabalita na we do have one case na a 10 yr old girl galing daw sya ng states wid her parents. haiz.. Im worried shempre air bourne kasi yung virus not only for me of course, for everyone din....and hindi nomon ganun kalakas resistensya ko lolz but i do take vitamin c and all. Ever since kasi, since i was a child madali na talaga ako magkasakit as in. Im not proud of it or anything I actually hate it. Para bang konting ulan lang magkakasipon na ko haiz... but my mom gave me an anti flu, ininjectionan nya ko nun ang sakit amf ang liit kasi nung karayom kaya mas ramdam ko yung sakin. I just hoped na hindi na kumalat pa satin ung virus. And wala na sanang magkasakit nun satin. Marami na tayong problems kaya sana wag na tong dumagdag pa right? May God bless us all. ^_^
Last night din I cried yeah I cried liek malapit na kong mamatay lolz. kasi namamaga yung left toe ko ung hinlalaki ko sa kaliwa. Kasalanan kasi nung nagpedicure sakin haiz... basta ang sakit parang may laman na lumabas pinapatakan ko ng kandila. Derecho patak na wala ng bulak bulak.. kaya ang sakit sakit pero sa una lang naman.. Ang reason kung bakit ako umiyk kagabi ay yung sinabi ng mom ko sabi nya "mahirap yan Tina, pedeng tanggalin yang kuko mo". Nagulat talaga ako... naisip ko na kasi yun, pero ayaw ko ngang isipin na ganun ang mangyayari. Pero nung sinabi nya di ko na napigilan. Naiyak na talaga ako, isipin ko pa lang na hihilahin yung nail ko di ko kaya lolz. My Mom's a doctor pero marami na syang iniisip..ayaw ko ng dumagdag pa. I just hope na hindi naman ganun ang mangyari sakin. I mean im really hoping and praying to Bro. yeah kay Bro Im still not loosing hope. Dahil alam ko yun ang gusto Nyang gawin ko in times liek this, ang Manalig sa Kanya. kaya Ill stay positive para magng ok din, kas kung puro Negative iniisip ko nakakapraning haha...
Lately, Hayden Kho's video scandals are everywhere and i mean everywhere haha xd Ive seen so many posts at FTALK about dun haha. Last night it was our topic at MTM (meet tha monsturs) haha and we had so much fun again. ang aadik kasi namin lahat ako, si Ays, si Kent, si Lou, si Kwek, Si munchkin, si Dess, si Alyssa. Si biep dess and hotfudge alyssa naman dumating nung malapit na kong mg out. basta ayun ang kulit... Ive seen the Katrina Hayden vid pero di ko pa natapos.. haha amf.. ive seen the Maricar Reyes hayden too... 27 minutes? lolz.. Thanx to
siz AYS for the links XD I havent seen the one with the brazillian girl on it. nakakacurious din kasi talaga.. pati mga tao dito samin gusto makita yung mga videos. Grabe talaga si Hayden I mean, Ok lang sana kung hindi sya Doctor kaso doctor sya eh... parang iba yung dating. He really is an exibitionist... Its not the first scandal na nakita ko pero siguro kasi nakadagdag sa kanya yung pagiging doctor nya.. haiz...ewan bahala sya lolz... Sabi pa nga marami pa syang ibang videos hindi lang yung tatlong yun lolz. anyways... madami pang dapat isipin di ba? pero yun ang pinaka mainit na issue ngayon. And now katrina's asking for justice sa kumalat nilang video. uhmmm I understand her naman kasi babae rin ako and if i were in her place magagalit din ako ng sobra. She's strong naman eh sabi nga ni angel locsin sa news ^_^
Im a Pet Society addict, pero di rin naman sobwang addict. haha LABO? yeah ang cute kasi ng pet ko haha kagigil ba lolz. Nadecorate ko na yung 9 rooms ni Mhimsy pero marami pa kong idadagdag dun ayaw ko lang kasi ng empty room ^_^ This is what she looks liek ....
Mhimsy ^_^
These are my fave rooms naman...
The Bedroom ^_^
Entertainment room 1
Japanese Inspired xD
may mga kulang pa lahat ng rooms ko kaya pinagiipunan ko pa haha xD
I dont want too many decors naman sa isang room... simple yet elegant and cute ang gusto ko ^_^
Pero I wanna thank BIEP DESS for giving me soooo many gifts from my wishlists. grabe solomot talaga biep! And kay TWI/PHIA aka pinkblack08 for the gifts also!!
Kapag tapos na ko magaus ng haws ni mhimsy ako na ang mamimigay ng gifts ^_^
heres my latest wishlist nga pala
Black Luxury Hi-Fi, Goldfish Bowl or
anything from the luxury na wala pa ko haha xD
I want some rare items too... kaso sobwang rare nya di ako makahagilap...lolz
Monster Couch, Bulldog,Mummy Doll, Monster Doll, Piggy, Skeleton Shirt 
'Its so hard to say im fine without him...
because deep inside im hurt and i have to pretend im alright..
smile and hold back the tears
because from what i can see...
he's doing fine without me.." T_T
"there are things that i dont want to think of,
but i cant even forget it..
there are things that i dont want to continue
but im afraid to end it..
Its just liek i dont want to expect anything...
but im still willing to wait....."
Last April 21 2009 at around pass 10 am he texted me and said he's breaking up with me yeah...he did... I asked him why so many times.... Sabi nya nahihirapan sya sa situation namin.. and may nakilala syang iba....and that it happened so fast daw...i still dunno a lot or some.. pero sabi nya un lang daw ang reason why..
It hurts it hurts liek hell.... weve been together moer than 3 yrs... and he ended our relationship just liek that..
Sana noon pa nya naisipang makipaghiwalay... hindi kung kailang mahal na mahal ko na sya...nahihirapan sya.. ganun naman na ang setup namin miski noon and he's ok with that.. bihira kami magkita, pero nagkikita kami hindi naman totally wala... T_T
I talked to him the next morning april 22 over the phone.. and i cried, nung 21 pa ko naiyak... sabi pa nya siguro nga mas mahal nya yung girl para talikuran ako ng ganun na lang... he even told me na kaya ko tong lagpasan... na makakalimutan ko rin sya... i was liek " f*ck " nagagawa pa nyang sabihin un ganitong hirap na hirap ako..
sabi nya mas ok daw na wag na muna kami magusap..para daw madali akong makamove on.. pero nahihirapan pa rin ako... lagi ko syang naiisip.. every seconds lang ata naiisip ko sya... pero sya alam kong hindi na nya ko iniisip... dahil may iba na sya eh.. he's actually cool about it.. parang feeling ko tuloy hindi more than 3 yrs. ang pinagsamahan namin...naiisip ko tuloy. naiisip din nya kaya ako?, namimiss din nya kaya ako tulad ng pagkamss ko sa kanya?.. naalala kaya nya ako and ung mga pinagsamahan namin non?... but then again alam ko na ang sagot... shmpre.. hindi..
he even texted me na wag ko na syang guluhin... see... pinagtatabuyan na nya ko haha.. alam ko ang tanga tanga ko...dahil dito.. pero nasaktan ako ng sobra sobra.. i never thought na darating ang araw na un...
I know di ko dapat pinost to dito.. dahil masyadong personal... pero.. di ko rin kasi kaya na kinikimkim ko ang nararamdaman ko.. kahit dito man lang mailabas ko ang sama ng loob ko...
Parang hindi sya ung nakilala ko... hindi ganun ang nakilala ko.. ung nakausap ko sa phone.. he's cold.. parang... haiz... pero sabi naman nya wala daw syang magagawa to make me feel better... he just said sorry...
i know darating din ang time na makakamove on ako.. and matatanggap ko rin to..
sayang lang kasi... mahal na mahal ko sya.. di nya lang ata alam un dahil sa mga nangyari samin before... pero mahal ko sya... hanggang ngaun naman mahal ko pa rin sya...
sabi pa nya madali ko lang daw magagawa na makalimutan sya kasi wala naman daw syang silbi.,...wala daw syang kwenta...sabi ko naman kahit sya pa ang pinakawalang silbi.. mahal ko pa rin sya... but still wala din.. haha..
so i guess... wala na talaga akong magagawa... but to accept.. though mahirap.. lahat na lang ng nakikita ko.. naaalala ko sya...mula kay Pikachu and sa Panda Bear na binigay nya pareho sakin.. and marami pang iba... pati mga favorite songs nya na kinanta ko non para sa kanya... haiz... Pati and restaurant city sa Facebook na sya ang nagpalago... sya kasi ang madalas na naglalaro nun kaya madali ako na level up... and now i stopped playing it siguro for the mean time i dunno... sabi pa nya sakin sa phone " ikaw na bahala sa resto..." kaya yun close ko muna ung resto... i dunn really care na... and with plurk.. im thinking of quitting.. marami pa syang iniwang remembrance na masakit pag nakikita ko naririnig ko.. haiz.. ang laki ng naging effect nito sakin sobwa...
sabi pa nya baka daw pedeng maging friends pa rin kami dun naman daw kami nagsimula...tas balang araw daw papakilala nya sakin ung gurl.. haiz T_T
sana lang talaga makayanan ko.. nasira pa ung keypad ng cellphone ko.. nabasa kasi dahil kakaiyak ko nung kinausap ko sya..lolz...
i guess hindi nya kayang mag antay... sabi ko naman malapit na rin na magkasama kami... pero he didnt.. wait for me.....
alam kong with the right time makakamove on din ako... buti pa sya ang bilis nya makamove on ako kasi nahihirapan =] he'd been a part of my life and he will always be. I know masaya na sya ngayon so ill just be happy for him. though it breaks my heart, ill accept it.
I still wished I had the chance to see and hug him even for the very last time.... he let go of my hand... and forget about me...
Broken Vow by Lara Fabian
Tell me her name I want to know The way she looks And where you go I need to see her face I need to understand Why you and I came to an end Tell me again I want to hear Who broke my faith in all these years Who lays with you at night While I'm here all alone Remembering when I was your own I let you go I let you fly Why do I keep on asking why I let you go Now that I found A way to keep somehow More than a broken vow Tell me the words I never said Show me the tears you never shed Give me the touch That one you promised to be mine Or has it vanished for all time Chorus I close my eyes And dream of you and I And then I realize There's more to love than only bitterness and lies I close my eyes I'd give away my soul To hold you once again And never let this promise end Chorus sensya na ang drama ng song ko dito...
yun kasi ang eksaktong nararamdaman ko ngaun
bawat lines kasi sapul ako eh T_T
meron ba kaung mga sad loev quotes jan?
yung kakarelate po ako? haiz.. lolz..
now
you notice i talk a lot!
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